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I got a tattoo!!!!!!!!!!

I love tattoos so much. I think they're a beautiful work of art and today I went and got myself one! It's only tiny as you can see, but it means so much to me. It didn't hurt half as bad as I though it would, it just felt like somebody was drawing behind my ear with a vibrating pen ha ha!

I went with my Nannan and Auntie who also got inked! My Nannan got a cute little owl on her wrist (which hurt, a lot) and my Auntie had "blood is thicker than water" across her foot (which hurt even more.)

Overall, i'm super happy with how it turned out and hopefully this will be the first of many!

Liv xox

illustrations

I study Graphic Design & Digital Photography at college and my current project is called 2D to 3D. Basically we have to produce THREE outcomes: a vector illustration of a celebrity or well known person, a 3D graphic of an object and a manipulated image consisting of two or more photographs.

 

This was my first time at trying some vector illustrations, and the results are below...

 

 

I'm pretty proud of them, I thought they would turn out a lot, LOT worse! Can you guess the celebrities??

 

Liv xxx

it's okay to be sad

I've got a lot of things going off in my life right now.

For as long as I can remember, I've been a very negative "glass-half-empty" kind of person. I really do struggle to be happy and although that sounds attention-seeking, it really isn't. I find it very difficult to make decisions no matter how small they may be. My boyfriend is always telling me to look on the bright side, but I really really really struggle to see anything even remotely shiny.

Don't get me wrong, I couldn't wish for a better family, boyfriend or friends in my life right now. I recently stood up for myself and although everybody tells me that it was a great thing that I did, I just get upset over it constantly. Once something has started to bug me or make me sad, I cannot seem to get it out of my head.

I worry constantly. Literally 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Okay, maybe not 24 hours as I'm asleep for 6-8 of them. But still! From the minute I open my eye to the minute I drift off to Zzz land, my mind is buzzing with worries about things I need to do, deadlines, things I wish I hadn't said, things I wish I had said, what am I going to wear to that thing in 7 months time, will it be warm tomorrow, how many hours sleep will I get tonight etc etc etc. Because of this, I struggle to remember the important things and spend much of my time being an emotional wreck due to the stress I put on myself and the lack of sleep because I cannot seem to switch my brain off.

I have very little self esteem. I don't particularly like the way I look. I cannot bear to have my arms on show for the stupid reason that I think my arms are too hairy. Even when people compliment me, I talk myself out of it making myself believe that they're just lying to be nice.

We lost my lovely Grandad in August last year and even since, I cannot shake myself out of feeling down. He was the nicest, kindest person I could even wish to meet and I really do cherish the times we had together even if they were only 17 short years. I'm jealous of the time that other people got to spend with him and I got so little. It makes me sad when I think of all the times he has missed out on such as passing my driving test. It makes me even more sad to think of the future and what great things he won't be there for: graduating university, moving out, getting married, having children. I feel sad for my Nannan and absolutely despise the thought of her being alone in her house to the point where I can't even bear to leave her side.

I want to know if other people feel sad most of the time. I feel like I'm the only one. I feel like I'm sat here watching my peers move on and experience great things and I am not.

I feel sad most of the time.

yankee candles worth buying

Now, I would class myself as a bit of a candle freak. It's very rare that I don't have one burning in my room somewhere at any given time. And although I think the flame can be just as comforting and the scent, Yankee Candles are right up there when it comes to fragranced candles! Yankee Candles can be quite expensive in your local shops, but I would definitely recommend buying yours direct from the Yankee Candles website as there are always great deals available and I have just bought one at 41% off myself! Here are some of my favourites...

***All candles £9.99 - £16.49 www.yankee.co.uk***

CLEAN COTTON: Probably my favourite scent of all time. This candle smells just like freshly washed linen, very comforting and relaxing. I love to burn this candle at times when I'm feeling stressed or just want to relax a little.

BLACK CHERRY: A new scent for me, this is a very strong, juicy fruity smell that I just wana eat!! I light this one when I'm getting ready for a night out or when I'm having guests over as it just fills the room with a lovely smell that leaves a great impression.

VANILLA LIME: A gorgeous lime smell that quickly spreads around the house. I love to pair this one with a nice bath as the smell really freshens up my bathroom and helps to soothe my tired head.

FRENCH LAVENDER: The most potent of the four, this is just the perfect lavender candle for me. Light this when you're getting snuggled for the evening and you'll soon be relaxed and I find this helps me to fall to sleep quicker on a night!

Do you have any favourite Yankee Candle scents?? x

wishlist #1

Urban Decay All Nighter Long Lasting Make Up Setting Spray,  BeautyBay >> Bonded Lace Cigarette Trousers, Topshop >> Oral B Professional Care Triumph 5000, Boots >> Black Croc Moon Dial Watch, River Island >> Ginzing Mascara, Origins >> Planscriptions Concealer, Origins

Hurry up, payday!!!

i think we just bought a puppy...

Last Friday, I went to see some Golden Lab pups in the next village with my dad, brother and boyfriend. My dad has wanted a dog ever since our old one passed away four years ago, but my mum enjoyed the freedom of being able to go out whenever she wanted. I also wanted a new dog, but felt guilty at the though of replacing my beloved childhood pet. However, my dad convinced me to at least consider another dog the other week and so we arranged to meet the owners of these new born puppies and went on through to visit them.

It was absolute love at first sight. No joke.

There were 7 three-week-old pups all snuggling each other in their little pen. I spotted this adorable one that was so much paler than the other goldeny coloured ones. We picked a few up and had a good look at them, and although they were all super duper cute, I just could not stop looking at this little chap.

I picked him up and held him on my chest and he burried his head into my scarf and started nibbling on my chin and licking my face. After a few more "oooh"s and "awwwhh"s we decided to put a deposit down on the three week old male pictured above. I just couldn't resist!

So now we just have to wait a few more weeks until he can come to his new home! I hope he will love me as much as I love him, and I hope my old dog knows that I will never try to replace her!

(p.s we're calling him Wilson!!!!)

e.l.f wet gloss lash & brow gel

Now, I wouldn't say that I'm the most professional brow groomer in the world. In fact  up until last year I had never even touched my brows at all! Nowadays though, I like to touch them up with a little bit of shading from my M.U.A Eyebrow Pencil in Brunette (which is a lovely cheap and cheerful product.) More recently however, I decided to dip my toe into the scary world of eyebrow gels!

They sound like some crazy concoction, but actually, brow gels have altered the way my face looks overall! After adding some colour with the pencil, I run this clever little gel through each brow using the spoolie coated in the product. I also like to shape them using this by enhancing the arch and straighting out any flyaways  This gel sets like a rock and allows my brows to look clean and tidy all day long without any flaking or white bits developing in the hairs.

The other end of the stick contains a clear mascara but I don't really use this. It does the same job as the brow gel however so I will move onto that once the gel runs out.

Overall, I absolutely LOVE this product and it is definitely one I use everyday even if I skip foundation or mascara. For £1.50 it is an absolute bargain and does the job better than some higher-end brands. I really can't rave about this enough, BUY IT NOW! ;)